i dont really know where to start so il just pick a random spot. when i was growing up as a kid i had 4 siblings, 2 amazing sisters and 2 amazing brothers. today i only have one left. my brother. one of my brothers was killed in a car crash, and my sister who would be 17 today killed herself at 14, my other sister couldnt live without her so she also took her life. i was in a psych ward for about a year because of my depression. iv lived in over 10 foster homes. none of them have been good. after a while i decided  to leave and start my life over which i did. its gotten the slightest bit better. im currently living in a foster home with my brother. in the last 2 months or so i met this girl. shes amazing. i love her so much but not in a lover kind of way…i feel like shes my 17 year old sister reincarnated. iv lost count of how any times iv attempted suicide. i honestly dont think il make it past the age of 19. anyways thats it for now.